so im chilling in the on-call room again, just finished antenatal clinic at 10pm so have no inclinication to take the train back just yet (the hospital im at has rather shady surroundings, lots of pills and syringes if you know what i mean)

its a bit weird being alone in the rooms. we've got a really big space, but because its separate from the main building of the hospital, its REALLY quiet and (dare i say) eerie, having to walk the pathway to get to here.Plus i guess a bit of paranoia sets in because knowing of where i am ( in a very much less desirable neighborhood, ok sorry for being so judgemental. but its true i think, socially disadvantaged people are more like to commit crime and aggression right?) R was meant to be here too since he's on call for paeds but he couldnt be stuffed. bah

and looks like ive got to spend the night here again tomorrow since i start at 7 am in the next morning with labor wards. plus hospital food really sucks in melb :( not like the NNI where i had this whole range of asian to western food, had 2 huge shopping centres with galores of food and activity, and rows opposite the hospital with food again. i just had the most pathetic slob of plastic pasta, cant even taste what was inside the ravioli, and what disgusting sauce it was. some pinkish orangey goo..yucks

haha ok im just whingeing. its a really lovely hospital though, everyone is amazingly nice and forthcoming in teaching us. they know us all by names so its a really sweet tight-knit family kind of thing, they even arrange tutes whereby all the consultants rock up to present their cases (usually its the students who present) so its nice to hear differing opinions of management and stuff.

BUT IM MISSING NEUROSURGERY. bah, o&g surgery is crass and ugly, there's no finesse, no beauty in either the anatomy (its really ugly down there, sorry. does nothing to inspire/excite me) or the skills of the surgeon. there's no cool high-technology machine to be wowed at. just basic boring stuff...i dont know why we spend 9 weeks on this, 9 weeks on paeds 18 weeks of omg psych?! i think we should spend more time on neuro, more time on cardio..afterall, o&g is really afterall mostly a normal physiological process that every 2nd person in the world has gone through for centuries. and psych??! come on, thats not even medicine. its just talk talk talk. hahaha oh well..ok thats about it for now, nights